Even if I happen to wake up in a positive mood, sometimes that diminishes when I get out of bed and soon realize that I don't have enough energy to do anything. Then I go back to bed and realize that I'm not really tired. Maybe my body is exhausted, but my mind is going and going. Ugh! Don't get me wrong, it's great that my mind is 'on', because I've had it seem to shut down for long periods of time. Too bad my hands are hurting so much, typing seems to be pretty good therapy for me. I can't ever seem to have a good thing without some bad thing. Well, at least I'm sort of balanced I guess. Whatever.
I truly believe that we are all creators of our own existences, of our experiences here on Earth. So, I do my best to consciously remember this every day. The quality of our thoughts and our intentions have a direct impact on what happens in our lives. I also believe that everything that happens for a reason. People we meet, situations that arise- there is a greater meaning in everything. Someone may be there to help me one time, another I can help someone else on their journey. I do not believe in coincidences. Syncronicity.
It's hard for many people to find meaning in tragedies. Why do bad things happen to good people? In today's society, with the current value systems, organized religions, meaningless relationships, etc., it is virtually impossible for most people to understand the big picture. The BIG picture, as in the ability to ascertain why. Why we are here, how we got here. I hate to say it, but most of science as we understand it today is wrong. So very wrong.
Not everything though. There is so much more to the Universe than this world of matter. From our vantage point, we see billions and billions of light years, galaxies, an infinite number of stars, stuff that's hard for us to comprehend. With modern instruments, we can see into other wavelengths on the electromagnetic spectrum, from radio waves to gamma rays. Still, this is just a small little slice of the actual universe! Our senses cannot perceive the other dimensions that are co-existing among us. What's amazing is that what we can see and what we can't see is constantly impacting each other. We are energy. Consciousness. We have our bodies, which are temporary vessels created so we can experience whatever we came here to experience.
I believe that the Earth is one of many schools out there in the universe. Each school is different. Different types of experiences. We have lived these other kinds of existences in many different places before. We are eternal. Our bodies, our vessels may change, but our consciousness, our Mind remains. Depending our path, our evolution, some of us chose to be here on Earth at this time. Some did not have a choice, they had specific lessons, Karma, to work out. This explains the vast difference between the good people and the so-called evil people. I do not really believe in evil. Just souls that are profoundly misled. Misguided.
When I started to get very sick, it was hard for me to see outside of it. I was consumed by my unrelenting physical symptoms. After the months, the years were going by and I was gradually losing everything, I started to search for some meaning to it all. I did an enormous amount of reading and reflecting. I now understand that all those things that I lost in my old life were the distractions that were blinding me to the world that I was missing. They had to disappear in order for me to see the light.
I now understand that my illness has been a wonderful gift. It has been a catalyst to greater wisdom, understanding, peace. It brought me closer to my family who in my old life I had been growing apart. I realize the high value relationships have. They're everything! How we relate to one another coincides with how the world appears to us. When we have mutually fulfilling relationships, the world is a much better place. The focus has to be more about the 'we' than the 'me.' That's not hard when we realize that we are all energies feeding off each other. Good perpetuates more good. So does bad. Being aware of this is key. Key to a greater understanding.
Awareness is easier to have when the outside 'noise' is turned off. Our society is constantly bombarded by useless information, toxicity. We are told that they key to happiness is stuff. Material goods. Trust me, it is not. All around us we are bombarded with images of 'happiness' in form the latest fashion trends, the newest techno-gadgets, it's all around us and just won't stop. We feel this need to compete. To be the first one with the latest and best stuff. This is sad. The time of the year where this is most evident is approaching. Christmas. Over time, this favorite holiday has become a manufactured holiday for retailers. It's all about money. Most things are lately.
My illness has let me take a giant leap backwards and offer me a chance to reflect. To take inventory of my life, what things led me to where I am today? How could I have acted differently in the past? More importantly, what have I learned from these experiences? How will I proceed in the rest of my life from this moment forward? What things do I value now? What things can I do without?
It is easy to get caught up in the pain and suffering. If you let it, it will consume you. I try to remember not to take life so seriously anymore. This life is definitely not all there is! All of us are here just temporarily, we will come and go many times but eventually we will all meet up again, with our Creator. Think of life here on Earth as a play. We all act out our parts. Time is only an illusion. We are not our bodies, we are our minds.
Our minds are powerful beyond belief. We have been led to believe not. Never forget that we have the power to create our life, our experience. It's all about perception. It can be positive, with love, or negative with fear. We were given free will, never forget. We can't control other people's attitudes, but we can show them the way by leading a good example. They'll all catch on, in time.
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