Wow. Doing this homeopathic set is hard. I SO want to give it up, but something in me keeps taking those vials. It seems now, that about 24 hours or so after I take a vial (that's every 3 days) I'm feeling the worst. The worst seems to last about 2 days. I start to feel a little better soon before the next vial is due. Each vial seems to bring on a progression of both different and repeating symptoms, worsening in severity. My experience is proof that something is happening within my body. For instance, the fever shows proper immune system response. The lessening of symptoms prior to when the next vial is due seems to show to me again, proper immune system response.
Now, I must say, I have not gone to medical school. I do not have any medical credentials. But, as an individual who has struggled for information, for truth, for answers (good answers) about her progressive worsening and debilitating health, I have searched high and low. Sifted through all kinds of information. The credible. The bogus. Everything. I have developed a sort of sixth-sense, an eye for picking out the worthwhile stuff now. I am not invested in any theories or treatment, I have a very open mind. Therefore, I believe I am a good source on this topic. Trying to get insight on my deteriorating health, I spent many insomniac moments learning about the body. It's systems. Basically how things work. I feel I have a good understanding of what is going on inside and what Lyme and its co-infections are doing. The havoc they are wreaking.
Anyway, today started with profound weakness and pain with any sort of movement. I would've just stayed in bed, but I just couldn't sleep anymore. And, laying in bed, I felt awake. So, I got up. Dizziness, unsteadiness, loss of coordination... I was so hot sleeping last night, stripping down to just underwear, but not long after waking up I started the chill that just won't go away. It's been hours. Heating pad, layers of clothing, many mugs of hot tea... and still I'm struggling for some comfort.
I did that zone-out thing, the sitting and just staring into space thing (again)for almost 3 hours before I got up the strength and energy to get my computer out. Yes, my hands hurt typing, but my mind is temporarily occupied. Earlier, I tried reading a bit. I was getting too drowsy. I picked up several books up from the library yesterday. I read a lot before bed last night. Like all my trips to the library, I get a variety of books for whatever mood I might be in. I got a really good one, a bible for Lyme. It's called "Healing Lyme" by Stephen Harrod Buhner. Natural healing and prevention of Lyme and it's co-infections. I'm gonna want to buy this one!
Okay, I'm finally starting to feel warm. Thank you! Now, all I ask is for some energy and strength. Please! At least my neck and back pain aren't that bad today. I would have to give it a 5, maybe 6 on the 0-10 pain scale. But, I have an emergence of a symptom I haven't had in quite a while, vision problems. Double vision. It's dizzy-ing, hard to read, hard to type. I've been getting by with closing one eye, and rotating the eye I close. Uncomfortable, not fun, but I'm trying to cope anyway. Pressing on...
My senses are telling me that at this moment, I've got a major invasion of bacterias in certain areas of my brain. Sometimes, my speech is affected. My personality, memory, balance, sleep-wake cycle, concentration, focus, moods, etc., included. Such a complex myriad of overlapping symptoms. No wonder so many doctors are perplexed and overwhelmed!
I'm just hoping that, in a month and a half, maybe two, when I start my IV antibiotics back up I'll be stronger and healthier. Immune system invigorated. Ready to take on those stealthy spirochetes. Ready to get them out of their hiding places, kill them, and get them out of my body for good!
I've been learning more and more about attaining, and keeping a healthy immune system for life. Our world has just a slew of invaders out there, waiting to strike us when we're vulnerable. I never want to get that vulnerable again! So, I guess I have made my choice. Chosen to not fight nature, but instead to just what my body was built for, to just allow my body to keep a healthy balance of everything. To happily co-exist in nature. :)
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